The red rose signifies the great love for Cinder. it was sent
from Sister Jackie, MuffinWolf, to me for you three. The Cinder Globes were done by
sister Ghattenwolf, who also changed Cinders eye color.

All the gold in California is in a bank in the middle
Of Beverly Hills, in somebody else’s name,
So if you’re dreaming about California,
It don’t matter at all where you played before,
California’s a brand new game,

Trying to be a hero, winding up a zero,
Can scar a man forever, right down to your soul,
Living on the spotlight, can kill a man outright,
‘Cause everything that glitters is not gold,

All the gold in California is in a bank in the middle
Of Beverly Hills, in somebody else’s name,
So if you’re dreaming about California,
It don’t matter at all where you played before,
California’s a brand new game,

Trying to be a hero, winding up a zero,
Can scar a man forever, right down to your soul,
Living on the spotlight, can kill a man outright,
‘Cause everything that glitters is not gold,
All the gold in California is in a bank in the middle
Of Beverly Hills, in somebody else’s name,
So if you’re dreamin’ about California,
It don’t matter at all where you played before,
California’s a brand new game.

I feel quite certain that all the gold in the world could not
replace the love that this one had and still has for Cinder.
As time speeds swiftly by and days turn into weeks and weeks into months
every now and the the "waves of sorrow" will strike and memories will be as
a great arizona gully washer and the eyes will fill with hot stingers
as the thoughts of Cinder come flooding back once more.
I read a story about a cowboy who mourned his lost dog for 17 long years.
Be not surprised if the memory and love of Cinder lasts at least that long.
May the gentle wind called peace be in your heart for all eternity
and then one day more. And may each day of that time be an eternity unto it's self.

My song for Cinder

HOLD ME JUST LONG ENOUGH

I REALLY NEEDED THE LOVE THAT YOU GAVE ME,
AND ALL I EVER REALLY WANTED WAS JUST FOR YOU TO STAY.
AND I GUESS I REALLY NEED FOR YOU JUST TO HOLD ME,
COULD YOU HOLD ME LONG ENOUGH FOR THE HURT TO GO AWAY.

YOU TOLD ME THAT MORNING THAT YOU WERE LEAVING,
AND I THOUGHT THAT MY WHOLE WORLD WOULD END.
I'VE SPENT A LOT OF TIME JUST THINKING BOUT YOU,
YOU KNOW YOU WERE ALWAYS, MY BEST FRIEND.

NOW YOUR ARMS AREN'T HOLDING, THE WAY THAT THEY SHOULD BE,
AND I GUESS IT WILL ALWAYS, BE THIS WAY,
BUT I CAN STILL REMEMBER THE LOVE THAT WE HAD,
SO HOLD ME LONG ENOUGH FOR THE HURT TO GO AWAY.

I LOVED TO TRAVEL, WITH YOU AT MY SIDE,
BUT SOMETIMES WE'D JUST STOP FOR THE NIGHT.
WE'D BUILD US A CAMPFIRE, AND JUST STARE AT THE FLAMES,
OR SOMETIMES WE'D SING SONGS, OR WE'D JUST FIGHT.

YOU ALWAYS WANTED, A SONG JUST FOR YOU,
SO I WROTE THIS NEW SONG, AFTER THINKING FOR AWHILE.
I KNOW IT'S NOT HAPPY, IT'S JUST ANOTHER SAD SONG,
BUT I CAN'T WRITE FOR HAPPY, WITHOUT YOUR SWEET SMILE.

COME LOVE ME ONE TIME, THE WAY THAT YOU USED TO,
HELP ME LAUGH ALL THE HURTING AWAY,
WE COULD GET HIGH ON THE LOVE WE ONCE HAD,
AND THIS POOR HEART IS THE PRICE THAT I'D PAY.

I REALLY NEEDED THE LOVE THAT YOU GAVE ME,
AND I REALLY WANTED YOU TO STAY.
I GUESS I REALLY NEEDED FOR YOU JUST TO HOLD ME,
SO COULD YOU HOLD ME LONG ENOUGH, FOR THE HURT TO GO AWAY.